The Only Constant Is Change

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 4:53 pm

It’s been such a long time since I have properly write something and now I’m having some trouble thinking of something to write about. I’ve a lot of travel post pending and I can also write about studying aboard but I don’t feel like writing up on those. Just not now… So I guess I’ll just ramble along and see what I can make out of this entry.

Well… a lot has happened in the past year. True to saying ‘the only constant is change’, my life have morphed into a strange and queer place, an unknown terrain.

Of course it’s not like we can predict the future and know exactly what’s going to happen. But there is usually an anchor in one’s life, something that holds to your place and make you stand firm amidst the fast changing and, most of the time, confusing world. And so, when one’s looses the anchor, they are cut adrift…

It is scary to be aimlessly floating in this big wide world and the helplessness of having no control at all over the tides and currents of life is overwhelming.

I don’t know why after typing the above, The Life Of Pi comes into my head. I haven’t read to book. I’ve only seen the trailer and I’m so looking forward to the movie. I’m going to get the book some time soon too. Anyway, I guess the reason why I thought of this is because the trailer I’ve seen closely resembles to what I was saying: – being stranded in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by nothing but endless water…

See! This is the perfect illustration of the feeling I was trying to describe. And, at least he has a beautiful tiger with him.

I know I can’t stay like this but I also know I can’t rush into anything major right now. I guess all I can do now is to take my time and find my way again. I don’t know how much time I’ll need and I don’t know how the future will unfold for me. But I figured, why not sit back and enjoy the scenery until I see a sign or a light or something. It’s definitely better than being frustrated and bitter about it.

Plus, in the trailer it shows that the character have seen marvelous things while he was stranded. Things he would not have seen if not for his situation like the endless diamond sky and the illuminating whale (at least I think it’s an illuminating whale).

I believe there’s always a silver lining in the worst-ever-possible situation and I hope I see something wonderful and breath-taking like the character. Everything happen for a reason and as long as God is with me, guiding the way, I will be OK.

Well now, this post turned out to be a self-encouragement post. hahaha… Then it’s only appropriate to end this with:

Shuyi, Gambate!!!

A New Chapther

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 11:56 am

I think I will start writing again.

I have stop writing for some time and that leaves a huge gap between the my last post and this one. I was desperately trying to fill up the gap then, trying to create an illusion that all my entries had been a continuous effort. But eventually I couldn’t cope…

About the illusion part, it was not a conscious attempt. In fact, it just seemed like something I had to do. Now that I have stepped out of that phrase, been through more things and, hopefully, grew up a bit, revelation and realization comes in. We humans tend to fool ourselves into the ideals that we desire, consciously or subconsciously.

I know that the statement is a bit severe and melodramatic. It’s just a blog after all. No big deal! But looking it from another angle, subconscious effort was put into the concealment of flaw even for such a mundane thing. What more other more significant stuff in life!

Admit it or not, we play ostrich most of the time. Not surprisingly, we are very good at brain washing ourselves! Excuses and ‘reasons you wouldn’t understand’ helps us to run away from less desirable situations, to facilitate our actions and, to get what we want. The great thing is, we actually believe what we said until things start to go wrong!

I’m not saying that weighing out your options and begin practical and rational is wrong. There is a very fine line between being rational and making excuses. Well, then again, the balance of everything in the world has always been delicate. That is why the world is so topsy turvy!

Back to my original topic. I will start writing again. This time I will not try to fill the gap. I write whenever I like, whatever I like, keeping things real.

After all, perfection is boring. It is imperfection that makes life interesting!

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