Too Much Too Lazy

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 4:19 pm

Being at home in Ipoh is so comfortable! Really miss the days that I actually live here instead of travelling back for a few short days.

It is so comfortable that I don’t feel like writing even when there are stuff I want to put up in my blog.

I am in my comfort zone. Too comfortable to do anything seriously except eat, sleep, watch TV. Ahh… my beloved TV. I don’t get to watch TV in my place in Subang, mind you.

Yet, I have so many things that I want to write about!!!

But my days lazing in Ipoh is coming to an end soon so I guess everything else will just have to wait…

Upcoming posts will be all about events that happened long long ago. OK, not that long actually. One or two weeks late I think.

Flowers From My Dear

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 6:48 pm

This is old news and it was when I went back to Ipoh. I wanted to blog about this but I forgot to bring back with me the cable that connects my camera to the computer. Hence the posting of a past incident. A sweet one nonetheless…


Aren’t they pretty???

My dear had to go on sudden a trip to Cameron the day before I’m going back to Ipoh. I was quite disappointed that we could not spent my last day in PJ together.

My dear was in Cameron for 3 days and 2 nights, leaving Cameron on the 15th of August which is a Saturday and passing by Ipoh. He purposely dropped by my house to give me these beautiful flowers he got from Cameron!


Lavender and roses

My dear specially got these for me! He got me roses in two shades of red and pink ones!

Pretty pretty pretty… :-D


I like these the best! :-)

Knowing that I have a love for lavender he also got me some!


Although it’s not like the type of lavender we usually see in pictures and posters but it’s also called lavender. Furry lavender they are, I shall call them Malaysian lavender.

Thanks dear for being so sweet! I am truly blessed…

Blind Love

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 7:47 pm

The saying goes ‘love is blind’. Is it true?

blind love

I see now samples of blind love around everyday, increasing by numbers. People around me, friends and families, seems to fall into this devastating pit. The stories they share, the pain I see in them, the tears that are shed, are endless and unforgotten…

When I see them, hear them, I am lost for words. Whatever I say or do seems to be useless. Helpless is exactly how I feel and exactly how it is.

It is like they have lost all logical sense. Like moths flying into fire they are, stubbornly marching on death road, unable to free themselves from the deadly attraction. Like drug they are, lifting you to soaring heights and then dooming you to painful sufferings yet leaving you wanting more.

love is painful?

Love is painful, is it how it should be? If not, why are people suffering in the name of love? Why do they stay with the one they claim to be in love with who gives them nothing but ill treatment? Why do they struggle to fulfill unreasonable demands of the one they love when sadness is all they feel instead of sweet happiness?

Call me ignorance for I know not the reluctance to leave bitter love behind. I too know not the reasons to endure harsh words or forceful blows by the one who claims to love me.

bleeding heart

Suppose not love to be sweet and tender? Sweet and tender not I find a relationship filled with tears and pain. Sweet and tender not I find love which carries nothing but scars and wounds.

Suppose not love to be kind and forgiving? An excuse letting violence triumphs over unconditional love. One lets not forget that love works two ways.

What is love? Can love tainted by lies and betrayal still be pure? Can love polluted by resentment and suspicion still be selfless?

tainted love

People nowadays seems to live in lies and fantasies thinking that they can heal the pain and not leave a scar. Or that they can wipe clean the wrongs that they can have done in the history of their lives.

Should I call them weak for falling in devil’s temptation? Or should I declare them fault for their lack of self constrain? Should they be forgiven and let them hurt you again with stronger blows? Or should they be banished from our hearts forever and risk loosing sincere hearts of repentance?

heart of glass

Either way, should one’s heart be put at risk? How many wounds can a delicate heart carry? How much blood can a fragile heart shed? How much aching can a frail heart bear?

Can one put one’s heart in the protection of an amour? Or train one’s heart to not feel pain and sorrow? Can one then pronounce immunity from the emotional baggage?

Would then one risk being hungry for love and thirsty for affection? Would one miss being held and pampered? Would one yearn for trusty shoulders and warm breast? Would one wither from loneliness and dwindle from solitariness?


In these circumstances, I think, it would be fit to say that one is lost in love. Not knowing what to do, not knowing what can be done, not knowing what is ahead, not knowing what to expect…

In my right mind I still believe the power is still in one’s hand to save one self from all the chaos but I would be innocent to say that everyone can do it for I see a lot who cannot. Unfortunately, no can save them if they cannot save themselves.

Stupidity… This word seems to be used by a lot of people as the reasons for being cursed by deceitful love. But I will not allow my simple mind to think so.

How could I use such crude word on my loving savior, Lord God, Jesus Christ!


John 3:16

‘For the Lord so love the world that he sent His only son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but may have eternal life.’

Because God so love us He sent Jesus Christ to redeem us. Christ because of His obedience and love was nailed on the cross by the very people He was trying to save.

How are we, sinful human beings, worthy of such great sacrifice? It is because of love, we, wretched mortals gain eternal life to be together with our Heavenly Father.

This love that was shown is pure, unconditional, selfless, forgiving, and kind. Coarse words like stupid and foolish are incompatible with love so great and mighty.


I would say that people are blindfolded and they are unable to see clearly but insist on catching something although they are aimlessly waving they arms in thin air most of the time.

Their hopes keep them going and they go in the direction their hearts take them. There are no rights and wrongs in what ever way they go and certainly not stupid and foolish. The only thing that can be done is stay true to your heart.


As friends we can only be with them when they are in need and stay with them to give support. Praying for them in hopes that they will one day find the right one while walking down life’s path with them, hand in hand. Wishing them a simple wish, happiness…