A New Chapther

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 11:56 am

I think I will start writing again.

I have stop writing for some time and that leaves a huge gap between the my last post and this one. I was desperately trying to fill up the gap then, trying to create an illusion that all my entries had been a continuous effort. But eventually I couldn’t cope…

About the illusion part, it was not a conscious attempt. In fact, it just seemed like something I had to do. Now that I have stepped out of that phrase, been through more things and, hopefully, grew up a bit, revelation and realization comes in. We humans tend to fool ourselves into the ideals that we desire, consciously or subconsciously.

I know that the statement is a bit severe and melodramatic. It’s just a blog after all. No big deal! But looking it from another angle, subconscious effort was put into the concealment of flaw even for such a mundane thing. What more other more significant stuff in life!

Admit it or not, we play ostrich most of the time. Not surprisingly, we are very good at brain washing ourselves! Excuses and ‘reasons you wouldn’t understand’ helps us to run away from less desirable situations, to facilitate our actions and, to get what we want. The great thing is, we actually believe what we said until things start to go wrong!

I’m not saying that weighing out your options and begin practical and rational is wrong. There is a very fine line between being rational and making excuses. Well, then again, the balance of everything in the world has always been delicate. That is why the world is so topsy turvy!

Back to my original topic. I will start writing again. This time I will not try to fill the gap. I write whenever I like, whatever I like, keeping things real.

After all, perfection is boring. It is imperfection that makes life interesting!

MIA-ed Big Time!

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 2:16 am

This is by far the longest period that I’ve been missing in action. After such a long time of not writing I have considered giving up my blog but, nah, I think I can still salvage it. 8-)

In order not to break sequence of my achieve which is publicly displayed in the little side bar on the left to camouflage the little pause in my blog’s lifeline I’ll set the date back to 2010 while recording the actual date in the post itself. Hopefully I’ll be able to adjust it back to real time very soon.

I’ll try to write about the things that happened during the months that I have missed to keep the content and date relevant but this is not a promise as it will depend on how well my memory serves me.

With that, I declare that my blog will be up and going soon!

5th January 2011

The Month I Went Missing

Written by Shuyi aka Lavender at 12:19 am

June, the month I went missing…

I went missing from my blog for I was lost in the pages of books… I entered into the worlds of others which refused to free me. I was bounded by the clutches of the plots and have to drift along the flow of the story until I reached the shore of the final page.

I went missing from my blog for I went wandering… I wandered from Subang to JB, to Singapore, to Ipoh, to Penang then back to Ipoh and Subang again. Too caught up with my wanderings, I can’t even stay still in one place let alone sit still in front of my computer.

I went missing from my blog for I was busy admiring the colours of life… Trip to Penang painted blue, cousin’s wedding painted red, a gathering of relatives painted orange, holidaying with my mom painted yellow, stays with my dear painted pink, friends’ hang out painted green and time alone painted purple. The colours of life, the things that I will cherish and carry with me into my future of shining white light…

I went missing from my blog in the month of June but I will not let June be missing from my blog. And so this late post will be filed under June though it’s written in July for I went missing in the month of June.